I am so boring!

"Painted skies, I've seen so many that cannot compare to your ocean eyes."

- Mae, Sun and the Moon

State: Complete and utter boredom, I thought today would be relaxing and i would let my brain veg but I am just so bored. I have choir to look forward to at least. But not for another hour and a bit...

Book: Small Eternities by somebody...Im too lazy to reach for the book. Its the sequel to A Crack In The Line...

Music: Sexy Back by Justin Timberlake...what...it's catchy! And travis wall dances to it so it must be okay right?!

Im kinda to lazy to write anymore...Here tell ya what Ill do, Ill post that video so this isnt the dullest post ever. Here is is: the beautiful Travis Wall and Benji whatever his last name is, along with Heidi and Donyelle in the Top 4's final group dance, Sexy Back!

I Am A Professional Camel Tamer...

"We don't need no education. We dont need no thought control. No dark sarcasm in the classroom. Teachers leave them kids alone. Hey! Teachers! Leave them kids alone!"

- Pink Floyd, Another Brick in the Wall

Well it has been a while, now, hasn't it? I have been so busy lately with studying for exams and tutoring my sister and taming mad, wild camels that I have not had time to post. Yes, I am a professional mad camel tamer. They are running loose around the P-Dot lately and I just had to do something about it. If you believed that you are a moron. (No offence.) I have been told I am a compulsive liar but I just seem to have to much fun telling untruths. I do tell people when I'm lying though. Mostly... But that is a long story. Um let's see. I had my math exam last Thursday. (for some reason i wrote Saturday originally instead of Thursday...go figure...cuz i got no clue why...) i have vocals sight reading tomorrow and the dreaded chemistry exam on Tuesday. I am going to fail because I am not going to study and I am not going to care...at least on the surface. It's just that I really couldn't care less about anything I have learned in chem this year and I will never use it again...unless i want to impress people with my knowledge of why they use graphite for a pencil or what happens when you bang to metal balls covered in tinfoil or how to make aspirin. See...nothing I will ever use. And those are just the things that we weren't actually taught but just facts she mentioned. Except for the aspirin which was a lab we had to do. Wow that was long-winded. So I don't think I'm really going to study and well see what happens. Because I DONT CARE ABOUT CHEMISTRY AND AFTER TUESDAY I WILL NEVER HAVE TO TAKE IT EVER EVER EVER EVER AGAIN!!!!!! Happiest day of my life.

We are going to Graphite (it's a camp) for a retreat from Friday to Sunday this coming week! I am soo excited, especially since my worship band from church is doing all the music for the weekend. And cuz the food is really good. but mostly the music. We are getting so good and i am so happy for us!! Wahoo...well that's all for now. I must go waste the rest of my evening sitting on my bed staring at a blank computer screen. Hope you have more fun than I do. Ta ta!

Noname. (because it's so much cooler...)

"...It’s just the price I pay. Destiny is calling me. Open up my eager eyes..."
- Mr. Brightside, The Killers

State: I'm not stressed about anything at all today which is new. Recital is over, and the fear thing is in God's hands. Sure, Im still terrified, but Ive decided that whatever happens, happens because God wanted it to. It's up to me to just trust and follow. Thanks to everyone who commented, especially to Jerry for those verses. :)

Book: How To Be A Hero On Earth 5 by Rob Payne. It's part of the White Pine book club which I was so excited about. The way the author writes is so funny, very sarcastic humour and just funny lines. I would write some down but the book is 3 feet away and I therefore cannot reach it...nope i tried to stretch and it wouldnt work.

Music: Time After Time by Quietdrive. My sister recently downloaded the John Tucker Must Die Soundtrack so Ive been listening to it. It's pretty good.

I have nothing else of concequence to tell you.

So peace out and have a great day.

That old familiar fear...

"...that old familiar fear is tearin' at my words. What am I so afraid of?..."

- Here I Go Again, Casting Crowns

I have no idea what to do about this Hope Valley thing. I want to go back but I dont. If I do I am afraid they will ask me to do a devotion for the girls and that scares me soo much. I have no idea what I would do!! Im stuggling with reading the Bible as it is. I doubt I would be able to write a whole devotion from a book I barely know anything about. Everytime I think about everything I have been writting about the past couple days, my chest gets all tight. All this anxiety... Im listening to Voice of Truth by Casting Crowns now. Such a good song! When they played it live at Kingdom Bound I got a little emotional. Look up the lyrics sometime. They are so comforting. WHoa! Jesus is good with giving me ideas! I can do a devotion on fear! The fear of speaking out and/or doing God's will for your life. It is amazing how God can use your biggest fears and turn them around. This is becoming my truth blog, telling about everything I am scared of and stuff...

Updates and Fears...

"Isn't it easy to see I'm falling for you-ooouuoo.. Yeah yeah..."

So I had the feeling that you didn't want to be reminded of Christmas past becuase now were back at school and have only exams to look forward to. So now we are moving on to not so random lyrics from songs I have been listening to...not neccesarily that I am listening to at the moment, but just lately. It just so happens I was just palying that song on my guitar. I got lessons for Christmas (finally) and some new strings which sound funky...im not sure if it is in a good or bad way.

Book: I have the next one in the Crack in the Line series but havent started reading it yet. The 4th Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants comes out TODAY!! I want to go get it but I have no time tonight. They are also starting a White Pine book club thing at my school and as nerdy as it might sound, I really want to go because I was in the Red Maple one when I was little and they have some pretty good books. And I dont have to pay for them!

I really havent updated you in a long time...about two weeks I suppose. I basically just hung out with friends and went skating alot this past holiday. We had Hope Valley reunion which was alot of fun and Im thinking of going back...Im really scared of them asking me to do a devo though! I have no idea how to do one. God would definetely take the reigns on that one fo sho... I dont know... I feel really unsettled about the whole thing which makes me think that Im either on the wrong track completely or headed in the right direction but just need to let God lead. That's something Ive been struggling with when thinking about post-secondary education...It's pretty freakin' scary!! I have no idea what He is planning on doing with me. I am actually just so scared...afraid...terrified out of my wits...that still doesnt seem to describe the panic that seems to rise in me every time I think about my future. I acutally was looking at the KLBC website last night which is weird because going there never really crosses my mind. I need chocolate...Mmm thats better...haha...okay well that's all for now because I am acutally quite busy tonight. Cheers!