Friday, August 01, 2008

Anxiety-Making... and other allusions you may or may not understand...

Oh how long it has been. I just want to apologize to my parents and friends back home because I know you are lost without me and this is the one way of staying in touch with me. So again, I am so thoroughly sorry, but can't promise I can keep it up. I did pretty good for the first month though.

So here is some sad news. I don't know if I will be able to get my tattoo here. We went to Edmonton (which was so much fun) last weekend, but having such a love for clothes I spent my tattoo money. So going to college next year and paying for that stuff is more important that a tattoo at this stage in my life, though it really does pain me to say so. I called D+M seriously for about two weeks trying to get in for an appointment, but either they had no free spots or Chad, the artist I want to tattoo me, wasn't in. So it is really a bust for me and makes me sad. If I had all the money in the world (or a steady paying job) I might be able to consider it, but since I am a summer volunteer going to college next year and therefore putting myself in debt because of OSAP with no job prospects in the future, I can't really be frivolous. (I wasn't really thinking about that in Edmonton...)

Other than that nothing is really on my mind. We are supposed to have a Graffiti clean up around the city tomorrow morning, but there is talk of rain. It has rained all week. We haven't gotten and tattoo stories this week. The whole city seems to be in a weird funk because of the bad weather. This morning was gorgeous which helped a bit. We just need our sunlight!

Oh my family and friends are all going to Kingdom Bound... That is so sad because this is the first year my fam is going and I won't be there. I believe the Hunt's left today and everyone else leaves tomorrow. I actually am really missing it. I think I am preparing my heart to leave already. In a way I don't want to because we have made a lot of friends here and it has been an amazing summer, but 3 months is a long time to be away from home. (I figured if you include the 10 days driving time it ends up being 3 months approx.) I guess I am just ready.

Overall though I think I have definitely grown a lot! Jen was telling me she thinks I have really softened, become gentler and deeper. I think this is partially the case, but also I am just getting tired. And frustrated, but mostly tired. I know God has it under control but it still is anxiety-making! (catch the Pretty's reference there?) I'm glad for the friends I have and have made here though. I have a hard time talking about my own issues and anxieties because I am so used to listening to others' problems and don't take time to work my own out. I just hold it all inside until I am about to burst. SO I am glad I have people who can just be there for me and for a Savior who is always willing to listen even when I feel like I can't tell anyone else.... when I don't want to tell anyone else.

Alright well I wasn't planning on getting in to all that... but ya. There's me in a nutshell!

Thursday, July 03, 2008

Amazing Spirit-Filled Night

Hey everyone! I miss you like crazy!

Tonight we had prayer and intersession. It was basically amazing! I don't know how else to describe it. I love Thursday night because we are always so filled with the spirit and it is such a time of refreshment. Tonight though I was asked by Sarah Kirshner to sing with her and Justin who usually lead. I also had this book of verses for different occasions that Rick gave me to read verses out of. Just singing in the spirit is the best experience for me because I feel like I am actually using my God-given gift for his will. Then Rick, Kathy, Bill, and Sam prayed over me. It was just really affirming in what I was doing and really encouraging to me to pursue God's purpose for me here, to not be afraid and just go with the Spirit's leading. At one point someone mentioned something about being a daughter of the King, a princess, and that is what my name means and what my mom always reminds me of. She also gave me this book which is little messages from God to his princess which apply to different situations and discouragements. I was crying a lot... I needed it though because it has been a pretty stressful.

Anyways... ya that was my night. Now I am talking to some friends on french to one... haha yay!

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

My so-called busy life...


I am sorry that I have sucked this passed little while. I have been so busy that I haven't even checked facebook... *GASP* I know! They really should just add facebook into the dictionary... I don't know why it still comes up as an error. I guess I could just add it.

So I have been so busy because of Ink Speaks...but also because of Canada Day. We had the big Hawk Nelson Show on Monday night. That was crazy and I did get to go on stage for a few songs because our team got backstage passes. BUT we only got three or something so we had to trade up. I got pics but on someone not from our teams camera so I will have to wait until she adds me on facebook to get them. Then yesterday was the parade and stuff. It was exhausting and we all dressed up like clowns and handed out candy. It was cold but Sam and I had to run around to KAOS and then catch up to the float again so my makeup was melting a little bit. Then we had to help out around the Dugout for the giant barbecue. Let me explain that Canada Day is a huge thing here and there were people everywhere, tents lining the streets with vendor and food and free t-shirts. It was a lot of fun. I saw this mountain bike stunt demo and it was pretty cool though the guys really needed to practice up a bit. I did some interviews... Then we were doing some dramas in the GAS (guaranteed applause show) and there were bands playing and Jason from Hawk came and preformed a few songs. The Rezz Dawgs also came and did like...two.

Then today we started electives which kids can take morning and afternoon. Right now we are doing drama and music. I am the drama co-coordinator but today I was teaching guitar to a couple kids. We only have two and I need one so I could only teach one at a time but it works out. And now I should be transcribing because I am very behind yet again. So I will leave it at this and you can leave a comment!

Wednesday, June 25, 2008


So todaaayyyy...I got to hang out a D+M Tattooing which was basically one of the best times I have had so far. It was soo cool to actually watch people get tattooed (or pierced because apparently some girls were getting their *clears throat* nipples pierced) and I interviewed 5 people. It was just such a great atmosphere and I now know where I am going to get tattooed. Chad is basically an amazing artist and I would love for him to tattoo me. To be able to show off his talent would make me sooo happy! The only thing is that I have to go soon because they are moving their shop to Edmonton mid to end of July. That seems really soon and makes me nervous but extremely excited. Watching this guy get his first tat and see that he was actually in quite in pain was kind of excruciating for me. But it was really great to get to know the artists because it opens a lot of doors for us to meet people, especially kids, with tattoos. I am just really excited over all because I feel like everything is progressing so much. It is great to see this because it is such an answer to the prayers me and a couple of the girls have shared over the passed couple nights.

Now I am sitting watching a documentary with Leah and Adam called Dogtown and the Z-Boys. And am getting way too distracted. And Sam wants the I will chat more later! See ya!

(Side note: that was all last night but the Internet decided to stop working for me.)

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

A Longer Update...

Sorry about the last post. I know there was no info in it and it was basically pointless. I really did have good intentions!

So this morning I was asked to share my testimony. It wasn't on the spot or anything...We do one every Tuesday and Friday. Bill started us off last Friday and I went second. Ailin is on this Friday. It was good though. I pretty much wrote it up yesterday and I got a little emotional during it, not to the point of crying...haha It was definitely not a repeat of Hope Valley Devo Camp 2 of 2007. It has been good for me because if helped me to see where I have come from and therefore where I am going... And I think I am headed somewhere good! Jesus Christ = Semper Fidelis "Always Faithful". I am very tempted to get that tattooed on my arm now! haha I have too many plans! And so little money...

So my parents sent me a package for my birthday... I was so excited when I heard that from my sister (thanks for ruining the surprise! ;-) BUT it hasn't arrived yet! I am actually so anxious. I am missing everyone quite a bit and having something sent to me just brings you all a little closer... (That is a hint for you guys to send me stuff! kidding! Actually that would be cool though...)

So today is the...17th. That means Sam, Jay, Kathy (Rick's wife), and Nathan (he isn't part of our team, but is Rick's son) will be on their way up in two days. Mike is going to be coming up later because he has to graduate first. Pfffftt... He will be flying here with Rick who is heading home for a bit for a wedding.

Alright I think that is pretty much it... I hope that was a little more informative than my last post!